Monday, January 25, 2010

-sem 2 end-

time flew so fast ..
people, my sem 2 is ended !
this sem is damn fast ..

today is the last day of final ~ woohoo ~~~
is account paper .. the most confident paper of mine .. XD
yea people dont beat me .. im not chuin k ? just telling the truth ..

have been studying for 2 weeks like siao lang .
really like siao lang .
everyday just live inside my books .
swim inside my books .
now im out ! XD
we have been just study . eat . study . eat .
for 2 weeks !

god bless me please .
hope i can score well in this time .
i know i put not enough effort . =[
just please . especially my eng and ITS .
u know why =[
please .

ok . stop exam post . =]
lets talk about what had happened recently .
too much to blog yet too busy to blog .
a friend of mine pass away .
i did went there . and rest in peace my friend ..

final end which means sem breaks start !
woohooo ~ so happy ..
so many thing to catch up ..
so many thing to do .. =X
so many people to meet up =D
im so free but can also say that im so busy ..

gotta upload photo on fb soon . i promise .
gotta finished up my drama soon . i promise .
gotta finished huii borrowed me de novel soon . i promise .
gotta settled my promised soon . i promise .
slaps *** piak ! siao liao

oh ya .. dont know when ..
huii step on shit !! @@
oh ya .. dont know when ..
we kena saman ..
yea , totally we had 5 saman @@ (individual nor group)
oh ya .. dont know when ..
i started to miss you .. =X
oh ya .. dont know when ..
we non stop saying : slap me XD

forget when was the last time i watch movie @@
forget when was the last time i sleep well @@
forget when was the last time i sleep till noon @@
forget when was the last time i went red box @@

now its time to enjoy =D
results?
remind me after CNY ! XD
gotta do alot of shopping ..
people , slap me ! its time to count i have how many polo teessssss @@

hey guys .. cny coming soon ..
instead of buying new cloths ...
dont u should clear ur debts 1st ? XD



exam end . =X
sem breaks start . XD
please . i need brave .





i see you =D
i've fallen into deep black hole

-its the 3rd times yet it is the 1st time-

its the 3rd times .. i experience death from someone beside me ..
yet it is the 1st time i lost a friend cause of death ..

for those who know me well , u guys know how the 1st time crush on me ..
never will forget the pain ..
its too pain to forget ..
yet my tears are dropping right now ..
sorry but i dont want to mention who .. ='(

the 2nd time happened after 1st time just passed not long time ..
is one of the family member too ..
yet not much extra feel ..
cause da feel from the 1st time still in my heart .. =[

after so many years ,
few days ago ,
when i was studying for my final ..
the subject i most afraid .. information technology and system ..
noon , i received 2 msg at once ..
told me that i just lost a friend ..

yea , although im not so good v you ..
although we have not spoken much since we are friend ..
but you are my friend ..
feel not good to lose a friend in such way ..
u've fought good enough ..
it's time to let go everything and rest ..

bear in mind, u always are one of us . 5s7/2008

rest in peace , my friend . =)

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

-shh-

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Saturday, December 26, 2009

-rojak post-

well .. christmas just ended . =]
how were ur christmas ?
i had a damn great christmas eve ..
really damn great ..
the imperfect part was that without someone . =X

yea .. great .. christmas day im nt that high ady ..
recall back all my memories ..
sucks ..

thanks grace for the christmas present .. =]

things isnt go v the way it should be ..
it is so wrong .. but it feel so rights ..
we never solve our problems ..
we were just ignoring it ..
we were just escaping it ..
yet until i dont know is the problem exists ?

dont feel that u have the rights please ..
it irritated me ..
just do what u feel right ..
dont question so much ..
there is broken space between us already ..
oops ..

when u feel sucks ..
can u please think of what is the problem ?
but not just blaming the others . =]

is it always the 1st time most unforgettable ?
=X
perhaps ..

a mistake is a mistake ..
but when a mistake happen again and again ..
is it still a mistake ?
it is not a mistake anymore ..
it is a faith ..


currently broke to the max ..
never broke until so before . ><

i still doing stupid thing .. ><
broke dy but i still buy u present ..
i bought someone a christmas present ..
dont know how to give him ..
dont know he will like it or not ..
waiting to meet him again ..
i shall meet u soon , right ?
miss u to the max .. ur lips ..

final is around the corner !
really just
AROUND THE CORNER !
i havent start my study ..
havent start anythg ..
damn it !

2009 is going to end soon ..
many 1st times in this year .. =X






sometimes when something turn into drug ..
it is impossible to stop ..
i just couldnt stop loving you .


i miss you to the max, always love you . =]

Friday, December 11, 2009

-feel so not rights-

everythg seem so not rights ..
the feel is so not rights ..
sometimes ..
we hope things back to where it belongs ..
but normally it is so hard ..
we are dissapointed ..
yet we can do nothing ..
we are tired ..
yet we just can sleep ..
sometimes ..
the feel just so not rights ..
sometimes ..
we just cant fix things right ..
many thing is cant adjust anymore ..
we cant go back to the old time anymore ..
we wish but we just couldnt ..
we love to ..
sometimes ..
say is really much more easier than do ..
sometimes ..
we are just hopeless ..
sometimes ..
we can just let it be ..
we dont know what is right and what is wrong ..
we can fight for it ..
even though how hard is it ..
who knows what going to happened tommorow ?
dissapointed cant chg anythg ..
hopeless cnt chg anythg ..
sad cnt chg anythg ..
emo cnt chg anythg ..
yet we are still we ..
cant find the old me anymore ..
i forget how does it look like ..
sometimes ..
we just feel so not rights ..
but we just couldnt control what is happening ..
how we feel ..



all the best girls ..
u know u can do well ..
u know u can do better ..
we are just hopeless ..
yet what can we do just pray ..
dont dissapointed the one that wish u to be happy k ?
=]

Thursday, December 10, 2009

-oops-

oops ..
im so not me already ..
oops ..
i dont know whats wrong ..
oops ..
i need to be alone ..
oops ..
i hate the me right now ..
oops ..
i really hate ..
oops ..
i really hate when i couldnt find any solution ..
oops ..
i already dont like to share my problem ..
oops ..
i need company so badly ..
oops ..
i want to be alone so badly ..
oops ..
i wanted to hate u but i couldnt ..
oops ..
i wanted to ignore everythg but i couldnt ..
oops ..
arghh ..
oops ..
i just so needed to be crazy ..
oops ..
im just so not me already ..

Saturday, November 28, 2009

-outing v jspo-

woohooo ..
im back .. from genting =]
hehe ..
with my dearest jspo ..
actually is dearest lower 6 de jspo nia lar ..
hehe ..
i thk it is the last time we go genting together ler ba .. TT
and it just ended like that ..
all just a dream ..
just like what kiat xiang said ..
from ross roy .. although i didnt participate ..
till vision of flight ..
till now ..
it is so obvious that we are sitting slide ..
from the highest to the low part ..
all just a DREAM.. =]

some accident happened while they are on their way to genting .
but luckily everyone is safe . =]
couch ask them to bring hammer along nxt time . ==
to break the glass in case anythg happened . =="

we did enjoyed ourselves at there .
haha . no worries . nothing .
just fun . memory and enjoy .
although their room is so freaking far .
the last room of the row !!! can u imagine that ?
but i went there almost every time before i back to my room =="

we lose .
aiz .
we aren't the best .
but we are . always . in our heart .
deeply . no matter how good is others .
u guys still are the best in all jspo's members heart .
do u guys realize that ?
dont play v that ..
u guys really breaking our heart .
just like what have we done . hehe .
its traditional huh ?
still .
we still love u , jspo.

i realise what m i doing .
and the past might happened again .
ppl will start booming in my blog .
said that im bitch or whatever .
said that i dont have the rights to say anythg anymore .
but i just express what i feel .
nothing more . nothing else .
so please dont judge anythg .

can u imagine what 18 years old teenage do in 1st world hotel ?
we didnt go play theme part anymore.
we play water =="
no . suppose to be THEY ..
hahaha . because that time im busy with my assignments .
sit on bed there .
yet the water still can pour till me .
can u imagine that ?
yet they say its just quarter of a glass of water . ><
after that i go ask kok seng how to write drug's conclusion ..
they thought i pura pura de .
then kena again ==
suey thing is our jiang4 jun1 .
she is the 1st one go out and plan .
yet she is the one most scare . lol .
hahaha .
they place a black sheet of small piece paper at our door eye side there .
then they go to pour hot water .
for their milo and cup mee .
and we ?
scare inside room . starving .
grr . hate them nia .
and they laugh non stop .
when they heard that we really blif that . ><
oh ya .
the war is between 10625 and 10626.
04-08's guys and 04-08's girls . @@
hahaha .
we are 18 but we act like 8 xD

we went for snooker .
there is nothing much to talk about it .
we went for bowling .
we are kiam siap no1 .
there are 7 of us who play bowling .
yet we only rent 2 pair of shoes . haha .
size 5 and size 7 .
the average size for girls and guys .
so its too tight for someone . too lose for someone . hahahaa.
ended up we waste time in exchg shoes .
hahaha.
kok seng did strike once . then no one liao .
after he strike : he say . ok . can go buy chocolate liao .
hahaha .
their 3rd day .
my 2nd day .
our last 2nd day .
we went for sushi .
11ppl ate jor 250 =="
hahaha .
the waiter is damn cute .
we said we dont want already .
but he insist want to refill green tea for us de wor ==
haha.

but,
most of the time we just play cards in room.
non-stop that kind . ==
everyone is addicted.
hahaha .
yet we pakat to let shu hui lose .
pity her .

we love gossip .
we did gossip a lot =X

kok seng nail his leg's nail v nail colour .
hohoho .
kiat xiang nge nge say he want to do it himself .
ended up he colour his leg's hair too .
laugh till we bo lat .
hahaha .
we girls all bought one of the nail colour .
because it just rm1 .
serious!

1st world used to be a safe place for us .
we run here and there in midnite .
we even run to highland and genting there .
also not afraid of anythg .
but this time .
we are afraid .
we stay guai1 guai1 in room .
go anywhere find guys to accompany .
because there is a drunk people who knock ppl door and ask wher r u from ==
because there have indian that walking around dont know want to do what .
so please fren .
when u go genting .
please bcareful ==

the last day .
they wake me . ><
ask me go lobby to say goodbye.
i wake and go down lor .
dnt chg cloth . haha .
no image liao luu .
they ask we go back v them .
faster go back pack thg .
manazai bus no place dy .
so me and jessie didnt make it .
we didnt go back v them .

i love you guys .
i really did.
5 years already .
we laugh together .
we cry together .
we smile together .
we gossip together .
we work hard together .
we do many crazy stuff together ! xD
there are so many memory .
kl . genting . kuantan . penang.
every where .
from f2 till now .
so many thg happened .
yet . whatever had happened .
we are still we .
we are still together .
we are still strong . =]
you guys are the best . =]

i dont know why i post de thg v i previously type de not same .
many thg dissapear .
so this post already edited =="
anyway .
nvm ler .


Genting is a memorable place for us . =]
genting is a place full v memory .
memory of you . TT




ily, jspo .

Sunday, November 22, 2009

-nothing special-

nothing special to blog about ..
no special mood ..
no special thing ..
just feel that i ignore this blog too long time ady ..
thats y im here ..
to shout out everything ..

arghh ..
my mood change FASTER than the whether agn ..
but the good thg it is better than last time ==
i dont know when im REALLY smiling ..
when im REALLY laughing ..
alwaz emo ..
alwaz moody ..
as usual ..
feel fed up with everything ..
grr ..

YOU IDIOT !
stop ringing please ..
stop vibrate please ..
the name appear is not the name i hope ..
stop finding me coz i wont reply !
SUCKS !
please dont spoil my mood ..

SORRY to you ..
i didnt want it to become like this ..
really felt so sorry to you ..
>.<
I DONT KNOW
whats wrong v me ..
dont really know what had happened ..
dont know what was in ur mind ..
dont know what u want ..
dont know what i want ..
dont know why i m so hopeless ..
dont know why i m so stubborn ..
dont know why i cant help myself ..
i dont know ..
i dont know ..
i dont know ..

and please dont ask me why ..

its WRONG ..
i know ..
its just not correct ..
i know ..
you corrected the thing but you make it wrong again .. T_T
who is the nxt person to fix thing correct ..
u are the one make it wrong ..
so correct me back ..
simple but dont know why ..
I LOVE THE WAY IT IS WRONG ..

there are still something left ..
i know it ..
there are still something left ..
i believe it ..
>.<


you was the BEST medicine ..
your sound was the BEST medicine ..
your word was the BEST medicine ..
everything regarding to you can cure everything ..
can fix everything ..
need u badly ..
when im with you ..
its so peace ..
im brave ..
not afraid of everything ..

but it is bcz of you ..
the confidence me is GONE ..
the brave me is GONE ..
the tough me is GONE ..
im so scare ..
im so afraid ..
im so hopeless ..

im not OKAY !
not okay at all ..
stop wander in my mind ..
but i dont want you to leave me alone ..
sucks!
i had completely break down ady.


everywhere has memory with you ..
every place have memory with you ..
almost everything ..
T_T


its time ..
to CLOSE my heart ..
to build a WALL ..
to be TOUGH again ..
to find back the me without you ..

GENTING
here i come! == woohoo~
i went there almost every year since dont know when ==
every year with different ppl ..
zzz
this time is with JSPO again ..
but fewer people .. =]
sure have alot of fun .. =]
and genting was full with MEMORIES ..
memories that i afraid ..
omg ..
i thk i will ki siao when i was there ..
T_T










hopelessly devoted to you ..

you was a drug i addicted ..

you're my drug ..
im urs ..

b4 .. now .. and forever ..

and I NEED DRUG =X

Thursday, November 5, 2009

-hopeless-

i know im hopeless ..
hahaha ..
whatever ..
dont ask dont know dont mind ..
its forever now coz u asked for it and i hope i can do it .

i love you seldom came out from my mouth ..
and once i said it .
i really meant it .
u know not?
but now ..
WHATEVER ..

im hopeless ..
no nid try to advice me or what ..
i know u guys r tired..
im tired too ..
im hopeless i know ..
hahaha ..

busy life starting soon ..
yet im still so lazy ..
im so lazy to update my blog too ..
more and more meaningless dy ..
paiseh ..

im nothing .. you're nothing ..
please ..
you are not my who ..
stop making like i must treat you good or what ..
tired of everything now ..

once you have been a special part of me ..
once you have been a special fren of mine ..
u will alwaz be ..
no matter we still contact of not ..
blif me ..
i do miss you all even though i dnt find u guys ..
and ..
you are still the special one .. >.<
always ..

its the 5th year ady .
daddy , u know how much i miss you mer ?
how r u ady ?
how much i still hope this all is still a dream ..
i will wake up tomorrow morning ..
go to airport to pick you up ..
and then ..
i wont let go of you anymore ..
daddy .. can it just be a dream ?
i wanna wake up ady .. please come back ..
mummy is missing you too ..
so as sister ..
we love you ..
daddy .. i love you ..


i need drug >.<




if i have to choose between loving you and breathing ..
i would use my last breath to tell you ..




I LOVE YOU ..

-pretend-

我假装很潇洒。。
一转身。。 头也不回。。 一直往前走。。
眼泪一直在流。。
心还是会痛。。
回想一切。。
我做错了什么?
为什么你要这样对我?

我假装不在乎。。
可是真的很辛苦。。
我一点都不坚强。。

我很不好。。
你们的话我听进去了。。
只是,说的和做的。。 不一样。。
对不起。。
但我还在努力着。。

还可以感觉到。。
那心跳不一的感觉。。
那呼吸不顺畅的感觉。。
那欲哭无泪的感觉。。
那心在哭泣的感觉。。
抽痛着。。
可以感觉到血在流。。



我做错了什么?
告诉我,好吗?



。i need drug 。